Wahhh!!!

Yesterday was one of those days where everything just piles up until you lose it. I am sick, Pea is sick and not sleeping because she is so stuffed up, the surgery is coming up and Daddy is working again this weekend for the 5th weekend in a row. I am not kidding when I say we haven't had ONE day off in 5 weeks and only two of those days he has been off before 7pm. We are exhausted to say the least.

I am feeling a tad bit sorry for myself at the moment, all of it is just getting to me and my support system here is seriously lacking. But don't get me wrong- the friends I do have here are amazing and I am thankful for them - I am certainly not complaining about them. However I don't know many people and as much as I am a homebody I still love to meet people and make new friends. I suppose in time that will come.

This surgery is weighing on me heavily right now, I can't wait to have it behind us but I also can't imagine it happening. I am a worrier, I have always been one and so all the worst case scenarios have gone through my head. Late at night when the "what if's" start happening I begin to wonder if it's a sign that we shouldn't go through with it but the thing is, this isn't a choice, Pea can't live with her teeth in the condition they are in and they can't be fixed any other way so I have been striving to put the "what ifs" behind me and just trust and have faith. We are both strong and we are both going to get through this. Think of us, pray for us, please.