Reflections on motherhood...

Pea is a real nature lover. She loves smelling flowers, rolling in the grass, splashing in mud puddles and singing in the rain. She is not afraid of a little dirt and she likes to hold bugs. She walks by trees and bushes and says "Hug?" to ask permission before throwing her little arms around them, even a few big rocks have been hugged by Pea.
Along with being a nature lover Pea is an animal lover, when we see dogs on the street she says "Hand?" "Hug?" asking to let them smell her and wants to offer a hug. It sure melts my heart and its wonderful to see her so joyous in the great outdoors. She equally loves "Meow-Meows" and other top favorites are Owls, Birds, and Fish. Since our weather has taken a turn for the better we have been enjoying every second of our days soaking up the sun and just being together. I could not ask for better days.

My birthday was lovely this year, I spent the day with my family and three of my favorite mamas and their kids. Papa surprised Pea with her first bike, a shiny red trike, it was a hit and she has been riding it every day. Mothers day was also wonderful, spent with my family in the early morning and Mum-in-law in the late morning. We headed home in the afternoon and took our time, stopping in a few towns to soak up the sun and do some shopping. While I laid in bed sunday night nursing Pea I thought about Mothers Day and everything my mum has sacrificed for me. You really can't appreciate it until you are a mum as well.

I thought of all the sleepless nights my mum endured nursing me back to sleep, or worse worrying because I was sick or out late at night. The excitement and terror that goes along with watching your unsteady toddler run down a cement hill for the first time or even the millionth time. You finally understand why your mum wanted you to call her 20 million times when you went out for a night with friends. The dirty diapers, the spit up, the tantrums, grumpy days, happy days, sad days, she was always there for me. The patience, I admire my mothers patience, she inspires me to be a better mother.

I thought of the feelings that I have for Pea, the feeling that my mum has for me, it is an overwhelming feeling that overfills your heart and brings tears to your eyes. Nothing makes you appreciate life more than a little hand wrapped around yours, those beautiful blue eyes watching you intently, a sweet little voice and arms wrapped around you. The first look in your babies eyes after they enter your world melts your heart. You breathe a sigh of relief that it is over and they made it safely. Afterwards you realize it is not over, it has just begun and there is a lifetime ahead of heart melting moments, sighs of relief and hard hard work. Nothing could be more worth it.


Thank you Mum, for giving me life, and for all the little and very big things.
Thank you Pea for making me a Mama.