Sleep...

a five letter word that can take control of your life!

I know this because it has controlled my life in the past. The constant, "when will she just give up and sleep?!" has driven me to the brink of insanity. Somehow I survived and these days, Pea has been known to skip a nap altogether.
Pea has never had a schedule, unless she created on herself, I always let the ball fall her in court, because after all you can't force someone to sleep. I have had many nights where I should sleep or am tired but I cannot just give up and count sheep, add someone trying to force you too and I could not imagine the stress.

Yesterday Pea had a 3 hour nap, and for my hard to sleep baby that is incredible, she has never once had a 3 hour nap, but she sure has been exhausted after all we have went through this week. Today is looking like a no nap type of day. It is after 12 pm and she is running back and forth in the house screaming with delight. I must say this is a great change to the miserable mood she has been in lately, holding your poop is so toxic, I can imagine it takes awhile for things to become balanced again. Let's hope this is a turn around. I would take no nap any day over an unhappy toddler.

Pea is a sensitive and very particular girl. As an infant she liked to be rocked to sleep, with white noise on. I would sit on the exercise ball with her in the sling and bounce her till her eyes were closed tight and little body was limp. If I stopped before this she would immediately awaken and start to cry. She never liked sleeping in the car (still doesn't) and will seldomly fall asleep without being in bed. She falls asleep while nursing and kneading my armpit, and we cuddle up together for nap time and bedtime. For this reason, it is great to have a laptop. While she is in dreamland I can surf the net, upload photos, or read a book. I used to stress that I couldn't clean the house while she napped but really it's a blessing that I have to lay with her because I get the recharge I need for the afternoon, not to mention so cuddly and precious to lay with her while she naps. It is something I will miss when she is older and no longer needs me to help her sleep.

Well she surprised me again, at 10 to 1 she decided she wanted a nap and here we are, in naptime bliss. Letting go of expectations on napping and sleep has been so rewarding, I only wish I did it sooner.


Oh one more thing before I go just because it's so incredibly cute. Yesterday Pea and I went for a walk to get the mail, she saw a pre-teen walking across the street and said "KID! AWWWW CUTE!!!" hahahaha! She loves kids, and her new thing is saying "awww cute!" to everything. Guess who says that a lot??!!
That's all for now...